In a sad sort of way, seeing people say Tadashi and Hiro look ‘too white’ is really validating for me. I’m half Asian, half white and I’m always told I don’t look Asian, even though I visibly take after my Vietnamese father way more than my white mother. Seeing fandom do the same thing to Hiro and Tadashi, who both read as very Asian to most Asian people I know but aren’t ‘Asian enough’ for white people, reminds me that it’s people’s expectations that are wrong, not how I look.
I won’t go so far to call them nightmares but since I saw Obake Yashiki from the BH6 cartoon I’ve had a few unsettling dreams where I see my (deceased) mother silently wandering around my house or neighborhood, staring at me like Tadashi staring at Hiro before walking away.
I felt a lot better after seeing that there’s a group in the Big Hero 6 fandom that crushes on Tadashi. I thought I was a weirdo for liking an animated character.
I know it’s immature for me to be so into Disney since I’m a freshman in college, but Wasabi being into the same branch of science as I am and being black like me means a lot to me. I’ve got some clothes that are basically covert Disneybounds for him that I wear to boost my morale when I’ve got touch tests coming up. He’s my personal hero.
I wasn’t even a teen when BH6 came out. I used to fantasize about being like GoGo when I got older- confident, edgy, and badass. Now I’m realized I’m the Fred of my friend group- over enthusiastic, incompetent, and never taken seriously. I need to change, and I need new friends!
A lot of Disney fans I know say Frozen and Elsa are the ones that resonate with them regarding depression and mental illness, but I think Big Hero 6 relates to my depression more because Baymax treats Hiro’s depression and mourning like any other physical illness. Even my parents don’t understand that mental illness is just as legit as physical ailment.
Though not officially on the Big Hero 6 soundtrack proper, a major influence in getting me to watch that movie was Greek Fire’s “Top of the World” which was used in the trailer. The song motivates me as much as Big Hero 6 to face challenges and look for different angles.
I have major issues with anxiety and depression, as well as being a perfectionist. If anything was below the best, I would verbally attack myself. I did it so much, that it just became part of my daily routine, and thought it would motivate me to do better. But after watching the BH6: The Series episode “Failure Mode” and seeing Tadashi verbally attack himself, I realized that what I was doing was causing more harm than good. Now, positive reinforcement is my go to for motivation.
As a pale, green eyed Hispanic girl who likes science, when I found out that Honey Lemon from “Big Hero 6” was implied to be a Latina. It overwhelmed my heart with joy because she also has green eyes, loves science, and is always optimistic. I used to get bullied because I did not look “Hispanic enough,” hopefully with the representation of Honey Lemon, I won’t have to be self-conscious and I can be bubbly and awesome like her.
I haven’t stopped loving Big Hero 6 since it was released. It came out in one of my darkest times and it helped me cope and re-build my joy. I’m now in a really scary place and I don’t know anyone to reach out to. Relatives are toxic and I have reached tons of times to therapists. I feel like I’m trapped in a tower on the inside, despite my efforts to remain strong and determined attitude. I’m glad I can find comfort in Big Hero 6, but I seriously wish I had a Baymax, outside of the screen.