I’m not particularly attached to my fish, I mostly keep them for decoration. But I recently lost half of my tank overnight to White Spot or Ich. I held a funeral for them in the middle of the night and buried them under my loganberry bush to Circle of Life from The Lion King. I hear that song now and though I cry, it feels bittersweet. My fish may be gone, but they’re on the next stage in the circle of life. They’ll live on through my tree.
The past few years I’ve become extremely spiteful and cynical and find myself relating to Scar more and more. I’m in therapy and working on things now, but I still see Scar as a character even if in the end he didn’t overcome his own demons.
The Lion King is the movie that made me into the person I am today. Giving me a huge love for lions and other big cats since my childhood; I’ve always wanted “my own Simba.” Since I admire his bravery and his personality (Even if he was annoying in The Lion King 2 for not trusting Kiara). So when the remake for The Lion King was announced I started to worry, because if it is a success, then hooray! But if they mess it up, this may sound stupid, but it will be like a part of me is broken.
Whenever I tell people my favorite villain is Scar, they always look at me in such disbelief and I really don’t understand why. Several years ago, when “The Lion King” was rereleased on the big screen, I decided to see it with a group of friends. When Mufasa died, there was this little girl that started screaming and crying and I couldn’t help but laugh because her reaction was so comical. Looking back I wonder if I am evil, and then I feel horrible.
When my infant son was baptized, I wanted to ask the priest to raise him like Rafiki holding Simba with the church choir singing “Circle of Life.” I’ve never told a soul about this because I know my husband would divorce me for doing such a thing.
Whenever I’m asked what superpower I want, I always say something like, “I want to freeze time,” or “I want the ability to teleport anywhere I want.” But honestly? I want to be Scar. I want to be completely blatant about how much I hate everyone, and still have them trust me anyways. I don’t know what this says about me as a person.
I used to have an orange cat named Marley (short for Marmalade). When he was a kitten, my sister and I thought he looked like baby Simba and would often lift him up the same way Rafiki did. One of our nicknames for Marley was even ‘our own little Simba’. He has since passed on, but I’ll always have that sweet memory.
I would always watch Lion King growing up. It was my escape movie from my life. Later on I was diagnosed with ptsd because of child abuse. One day I was watching it again and the quote from Rafiki “the past can hurt but the way I see it, you either run from it or learn from it” really hit me and pushed me to deal with my past. I drew strength from Simba going back and facing Scar, to push myself into facing my past. If it wasn’t for that movie I don’t think I would have ever dealt with my past.
I have a sensory disorder. If I begin to have a panic attack, I have the Lion King soundtrack in my car. My favorite track is the instrumental that plays while Rafiki is telling Simba to go back to Pride rock.