I’m almost 24 now and still having trouble with the adult world between my autism and chronic health issues, and trying to make it in an unusual job. There’s a lot of pressure on me right now, and while Disney is one of my ways of coping, stuff about keeping childhood magic like Peter Pan or chasing your dreams like Princess & The Frog or Zootopia have me crying. It’s like the stress is getting to me or feels like I’m really far away from succeeding like they did.
Disney has been an important part of my life. Many of my favorite movies are Disney. But the more they make movies like Zootopia and Ralph Breaks the Internet, the less faith I have in them. There’s nothing magical about virtue signaling, lots of pop culture references, poor friendships, and forced “poignant” moments.
I used to think Nick overreacted at Judy during the conference scene, but that changed late last year. My grandparents told me that I seemed smarter than most autistic people, being autistic myself. They laughed it off and said it was intended to be a compliment, but, secretly, I was deeply offended by it. I can now relate to Nick’s anger at Judy’s statement that he’s not like other predators.
Although I love the “mean guys who secretly have hearts of gold” plot in movies like Tangled, Zootopia and et cetera, they’ve influenced my interest in guys who are a-holes and it’s caused me to be hurt more than once because of my expectations. I know it isn’t fully Disney’s fault, but sometimes I blame them for the fact that I always expect a Eugene and end up stuck with a Hans.
About a year ago, I posted a confession to this blog relating to Zootopia and Judy Hopps and how her bravery and optimism stopped me from ending my life. I am proud to say that Zootopia was only a beginning step in my recovery, and while I still struggle with depression and many many issues, and Zootopia may not be my #1 movie anymore, on tough days I do remember my favorite Judy quote; “I don’t know when to quit!” I owe a lot to that wonderful film. You do have to try. And it will be worth it.
TRIGGER WARNING- SUICIDE: 2016 I attempted suicide. Suffered major depression, was a family disappointment and was just done hearing it. 1st attempt failed, family caught me. 2nd attempt, was going to drive off a cliff. Before I did went to go see Zootopia. After, absorbed and fully memorized the lessons to heart. Never let anyone get to you and never stop trying, even if you fail. Zootopia saved my life and I will always be grateful for the movie’s message. My reason for living on is because of this movie.
I read a confession on here from someone in their mid-20s who said they own a Disney plush and it made me feel a little less self-conscious because I own one too, and I am 23. This goes to say that I have bad anxiety so having Nick next to me helps me sleep at night, especially on the ones when my brain will not stop running. I chose Nick because ‘Zootopia’ is my favourite non-princess film and foxes are my favourite animal. I love the animation, lines and inspiring messages!
Zootopia made me believe in my dream again. I hate that there are so many bad cops today, but I want to be like the few that still genuinely want to help people. Judy and Nick really helped me realize that yes the world is broken, but that doesn’t mean I have to stop fighting to make it good. I will become a police officer and protect my city from everyone, even people like Bellwether who abuse their power.
“I bought Ray Ban aviator Shades to be like Nick Wilde.”
“I try to be like Clawhauser. I’m also a bit of a corpulent cop, and while the other guys have made remarks about my weight, I think of Clawhauser and how he’d never let silly remarks get to him.”